And if this ground gave way, I just don't think you'd catch me.

I've been faced with all different kinds of bullshit lately.

This vacation is going really well, even though it's practically over. I stay up all night, sleep all morning, and then get ready and see friends for the rest of the afternoon and night. There isn't a day I haven't spent without my boyfriend, and I've also spent some time with other friends who I haven't seen in a while. I saw Murray the other day, and we had a fun time. I spent time with Adam and Samantha today, we went to the China Buffet. I also saw Jess the other day, but that was a fail.

I'm going to be signing up for another course at AIB this spring. I don't know what they offer yet, but I'm hoping to do something designed around either portraits, or digital, since I've already done the black and white film course. I'm really excited to start up the weekend chaos again, although this time it will involve less chaos and NO CIGARETTES.

Speaking of, on top of my nightmares, my mind finds time to make a dream about someone buying Blacks for me, and then me smoking them while be pissed off at myself for doing so. My mind is really active at night, I'm getting rather sick of it. All my dreams are shitty and mostly the same. My brain is harassing me.

Two months of no smoking. This is one resolution I VOW to stick to.

My boyfriend was sent a rude and bullshit message on myspace from some fake profile of some spic. He told Ray that I needed to be tamed or put a leash on. Haha, what the fuck. He also brought up something really sensitive to me, and it bothers me to know people know about some event and that they're just tossing around such a heavy weight on me. I wish people would just leave me alone, and stick to their own business. I don't understand why someone would go and decide to harass me right now, with everything that is going on.

People are so fucking ignorant and inconsiderate. I've made my myspace private again, and I don't know what I want to do with this blog quite yet.

I'm going to go read some.