Winter vacation is basically over. I feel really great about it, I can tell I'm going to be looking back on it and remembering how free and amazing it was. Now, back to reality. Gross.
Today, I started my diet, which is going to last indefinitely. I can't set goal dates for myself because I wont stick to them anyways. We'll just see how long I can stick to this strictly, and hopefully I'll continue making good food choices even after I'm done with this. My diet is now slimfast and whatever dinner is (which is going to be healthy). Breakfast will be a cereal bar just so I can keep my multivitamin down and drinks will be things such as coke zero, or sugar-free juices. Of course, water will be part too, especially around bed time, in order to get good cleansing of my body while I sleep. I plan on doing some kind of extreme physical activity such as running, or hardcore workout videos every afternoon so I can tone and lose fat faster. Lunch is a single, 180 calorie Slimfast shake (french vanilla :D) to curb my appetite for another four to five hours, in time for dinner or a small afternoon snack while working out (fruit, a serving of salad, freeze-pops that have no nutritional value). I'm excited to get in shape and lose weight and cleanse my body. I need this, I'm so ashamed of how I've let myself get.
I can't wait for it to be the weekend again. Today is the first day I haven't seen my boyfriend since the week before vacation. It's really hard, jumping from one extreme to another. I'll adapt again, I guess, because I always manage to, but it's still going to be hard and draining in the process. It's so nice to have someone to spend X amount of hours with, doing nothing but cuddling in bed or on a couch, or doing favors and treats for. I love taking care of my man, I feel like it gives me more of a purpose, and also like I'm a larger part of the relationship. Things are equal, and it's rewarding on both ends. I just want to be with him again, in person. We're each other's support right now. I need to motivate him to work more, and he needs to motivate me to keep on track with my eating and food habits.
It's so unreal to me, knowing I have to be up at 5:15 am tomorrow. I haven't gotten up that early in over a week.
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