Endless Ranting.

I'm in a very fuck everything mood right now. I want it to be 5 am on Friday morning when I wake up to find out I have no school. Then, I have until Wednesday to forget about everything involving school. FUCK SCHOOL.

I'm going to be getting suspended soon. They called me down today for skipping a Friday I had two weeks ago. They said if I skip another, I'll be suspended. What they don't know is that I skipped one I had last Friday as well, and do not plan on attending the two new Fridays I have lined up for the one they know I skipped. But honestly, who the fuck in their right mind would want to stay afterschool on a Friday afternoon for another half a school day? Never mind the fact that I have like four of those awaiting me, now. I'm sorry, but this is just not happening. I will get suspended and my parents will be angry at me, and then life will go on. Unless, I get suspended during Finals, which is next Thursday and Friday. I hope to God that does not happen. The system is so fucked. I didn't do anything bad enough to deserve all these hours I owe the school. I WAS LATE, NO FUCKING WAY! GOD I BELONG IN JAIL OR SOMETHING!!FMGLFKM..seriously. Fucking insane.

I'm struggling. I have no fucking clue what I'm doing in precalc, and I'm going in early tomorrow to make up for missing a quiz when I was absent last week. I hope I do good, because this will make all the difference. As far as I know, I still have an F, and that will not fly with my parents. FUCK PRECALC.

I have to stay after tomorrow to do a shoot in order to get full credit for my commercial arts class, because apparently some of the grade is based on shooting with the professional lights, which I've done plenty before, but the shots have to be apart of my final project. What? I'm doing all the advertisements on my own this week and weekend to have done by Thursday. I don't know what the fuck I'm going to shoot. Maybe I'll find some oldschool phone and make that one of my ads instead, since I'm doing a Public Service Announcement.

Everything is just so fucking stressful.

I'm looking forward to work Thursday night. I've barely been working lately, and I actually miss it. I'm getting paid, as well, which will be a nothing check because I only worked 10 hours last week, and taxes are shit, so I'll be making less and $70 and that's depressing. Whatever, I need money, at any amount. I can't be picky.

I just want it to be Friday night. I want to be with him and I want to forget the world. So far, he's the only person in my life that has had that kind of affect on me, and I need it more than anything right now.

And I need my mouth to stop being so fucking dry, and I need to stop looking at pictures of all these skinny models [thinspo?], and I wish I had glasses sometimes, just..because.

I wish I could just sleep the rest of this week away, or this month, or even this season.