Restricted.

My Dad was omitted to the hospital today while I was in school. I got to visit him after I got out.

Seeing him so weak and restricted with all the I.V.'s pumping him full of 100 mL/hour of different drugs, and watching him get stuck with insulin. It all makes me feel so much smaller, so helpless.

Now, I need to be strong for him, again. I was there when he was cheated on--twice, and now I'm here to hold his hands (wearing gloves) while everyone runs around him taking various tests to figure out this illness and how severe this all really could be.

He's under quaratine, so I can't even hug or kiss him goodbye. When I'm not at the hospital by his side, he's all I can think about and where I want to be. He needs my support to pull out of this, but I need the support of others just to support him.

I'm visiting him tomorrow night after work because there are no restrictions on visiting hours. I'd love to spend the night on the other bed in his room, I hate leaving him alone in there.

I don't know what to do or how to handle all this. I've never been in this situation before. I don't know what to do.