Laid back.

This weekend was really low-key. It was spent mostly here, besides when I worked 2:30-close Saturday night.

Friday, I finally got on my feet and to school. I'm not missing that much work, but I need to stay after for Chemistry so I can catch up because it's too confusing to teach myself. I found out I had a Friday detention, and also got assigned four more. So, I served one, and I've got four to go. I just want to get this over with and off my chest because I've been running from and going to these fucking things for months. So I'll serve them, and that will be it.

Friday night was spent in my den on the couch with Ray. We ate food, hung around, and soaked up TLC on TV. He left around 1 am, and came back around 11 and we went out to breakfast at The Cracker Barrel. MMm. Then we went back to my house, I got ready for work, and then went there. They sucked me into working until close, but I needed the hours anyways. Finally left, Ray got me, and we went back to my house. We ate, and fell asleep watching How Its Made, and I tucked him in downstairs around 1 am, and went to bed myself shortly after. Woke around 9:30, and he and I shat around all day. We did a lot of room cleaning because mine is a mess. Then, he left :(.

I hate saying goodbye. I've spent the last three days with him, and now I have to go another four before I can be with him again. I just miss having him at my side all the time. It's lonely turning around to him not being there, not getting food out of the fridge or dozing next to me. I miss his talking and everything we talk about in each other's company. I miss constant affection and being affectionate towards him. I miss him so much.

Friday night, we're celebrating Valentines day since I work Thursday. Saturday, I work until 4 and then off to Monster Jam! BIG TRUCKS! I'm so excited. I'm such a truck slut.

I can only hope this week is good to me. We'll see.

I've been trying to focus hard on relaxing and eating well. After last week, I'm going to stay away from all the diet sodas and starving. Its time to eat right and sleep well and drink good things. Hopefully my health will get better with time.