Re-run.

I've turned into a maniac as of late. That's how I feel, atleast. Everything is just raging inside of me, each emotion is turned up a few too many notches.

A few days back, I went on a little date thing with my friend Monica before she left for school. When we get together, it's usually over common interests, and we usually always start talking about everything in the world. This time, we went to a local bookstore, and it was rather nice. She's going to college really soon, and I'm excited to have a reason to visit her in Boston.

Also, during the week, my friend Kristen, her boyfriend Adam, and I hosted our own nuclear winter. It was, as always with her, an absolute shit show that really makes life feel complete.



We drove around in gas masks, acted like lesbians, and made people overall just freak the fuck out. View the photos here.

We've decided we want to learn Russian. Actually, we've become generally obsessed with the entire Russian culture. So, I bought two books for beginnings to get a grasp. It already seems very impossible, but I will work hard on it.

In this past week, I've spent almost $200 on books. Just books for fun, too. Last night I went with Kristen and Haley and spent about $103 on some good reads, and with Monica, I spent about $80. I feel like books are one of the top things I love buying/spending money on. I feel as though its not a waste, just like tattoos and piercings. Books change and affect my life and feed me in a way I cannot find anywhere else.

Kristen leaves for Mexico in a few days, then she's back in Maine in a month. I'm really sad to see her go, because she and I have grown and become such close friends this summer. Every night that I've spent with her has been absolute pandamonium and I don't want that out of my life yet. Ray and I have found another couple that we are close with on such a good level, and suddenly, everything is about to change and disappear into thin air. For an entire month, I wont even be able to hear from my best friend, and that will be hard, because she's always the first I want to call when something goes down.



I got a really great offer just recently to trade in my broken Canon XTi for the new Canon XSi. I'm really stubborn about my camera, because I've worked so hard for it and already I've documented so much, but this deal would just be life changing if I could follow through with it. I really, really hope I get it.

I got the beauty advisor job, finally. I found out Saturday, and so now it has all begun. I haven't been trained yet, and I haven't even looked through the stack of shit I need to read, but hopefully some of that will get done tomorrow at work? They want to get me over there on the floor as soon as possible. Saturday night is Ladies' Night at the mall, which would make a huge make-up sell, so I'm scheduled for that. I will be exhausted.

Wednesday, I'm visiting my second cousin and her daughter. I'm really excited because her and her entire family is like some long lost branch from my family, and I'd like to be the one to bring everyone together again. I really value family, so I'm really anxious and excited to seal this hole and get to know these people and make them important in my life. I'm sure it might shake things up a bit, but in the end, that's what family is about, and I know it will all be appreciated in the end.

Wednesday night, I'm working truck. So, I have to be up at midnight to be at work and unload everything and put it on the floor. I'm not excited in the least, and I really regret telling them I'd be willing to do that, but its still hours, and I'm not dealing with customers. It mixes things up a bit in my life because I'll likely come home and crash like I did the last time, but I'll be working with cool people so all is well.

I think I'm done with this massive update. I'm cutting my hair tomorrow and I'm not sure what I want. Then, I want to dye my hair black in the near future possibly. Then, when I have the money, I'm going to bleach it all out and ruin my hair so I can be strawberry blonde. I'd love to be light again, and I think that color is so cute. It still has red tones which match best with my skin tones, but it's not super dramatic and fake like my burgundy and red/purple hair was. I love change.