Cold.

Day Five

I feel like I saw everyone in the world tonight, while I worked. It was crazy. I guess the mall is just the place to be on a Monday night. How sad.

I saw someone that reminded me of a lot of things. It's funny how when people are face to face, they act so fake. A girl who basically disowned me and broke our friendship almost a year ago sat and asked me how life was going. She was friendly, and for a few minutes, it reminded me of how close we used to be. "Best friends". Then I was like, wait, oh yeah, this is the asshole who completely stopped talking to me and threw it in my face about how close we never were and how we weren't even friends, while all this time I thought we were such good friends. This is the girl who holds herself so high for being the 'first' to jump on everything, the girl who decided to drop out of highschool midway through senior year to get an 'early start' on life, on college, and on being an adult. And here we are, months later, and I've gone further than she has. I have a high school diploma, which will get me to better places than a GED. I've already been to college, completed a course, and have 4 college credits (all before graduating). I've been driving for over a year, I've held a steady job for a year this month, and I'm moving out of my parents house very soon. Are you still better than me? Are you? I'm really fucking curious.

Tomorrow, another day of work. Then, finally, my mid-week weekend will be here, and I will be living it up. I plan on finally going to the beach the first time this summer, and then getting my industrial done with Taylor. I want my lip pierced, too, I think. I'm not sure yet, though.

Time for bed. Samantha should be coming over early tomorrow so we can burn.



I want to be her.